It' July 2008 already

Time just flies, the last blog here was in March. Rewind back to March 2008, I started my new job on 17 March 2008 in trading company - which distribute pastry, bakery, confectionery ingredients as well as utensils, equipment & machinery. My job is to service the clients, now am into the 4th month already. In April, went to Phuket with my friends for holidays. May & June, I got myself busy with my baking classes at MIB, half sponsored by my company ( idiot me thought of it's FOC as co. will bear all - actually noone told me that i got 2 bear half of the cost), July - busy with the MIBC. Now after 4 months in this company, I still feel like yoyo. Honestly speaking, I still feel I'm not into this line & have this attitude of "look see look see" only. That's why I'm not performing well coz I'm complaining too much. This is the feedback I got frm my colleague, she's actually the friend who intro me to this company. I don't fully agree with her - 1 part of me told me she's right, the other part of me said i actually did take some actions & work on it. Probably lately, I feel very negative & compare myself with them too much that it actually did stressed me out in a way. I feel I'm incompetent & cannot handle my client well & do not have the connection with them. Maybe my clients feel the same too. The law of attraction says it..... I've decided from now onwards I'm fully in-charge & take charge of all my clients & I'll make them like me. Change my working attitude towards a positive & energetic direction. Be serious in my work - no more honeymoon. Buck up!! I can do it!